I felt really good. Then I just sunk to an all time low. I seriously need some help. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I can’t handle my erratic self. I wish I could just say “the end” right now.

I feel good, then I check up on you, then I get depressed again.

I’ve been feeling so free ever since the breakup. I haven’t felt like this in so long that I totally forgot how to act like. But the most important part of feeling like this is my happiness. I feel like I’m getting my smile and my laugh back again, and that I’m finally starting to enjoy life. I honestly felt like I was being held captive, and now I’m free. Thank you for doing this for me. Words cannot express the significance of your choice. However, it irks me to know that you act like you were the victim and that I was the one who broke up with you. Snap back to reality. Please.

I’ve become emotionally damaged and I’m a wreck. 

Filter

I need more good in my life, and less bad. More positive and less negative. I’m just gonna take it as you found another dude already, but who knows? I might be wrong and I could just be really judgmental. Thanks for being hypocritical about things. I hope you have a good time. It amazes me how even after we broke up, we’d still fight like just now and that you’d still be able to make me sad and depressed. I guess I just put on this persona of me joking around while I’m actually the total opposite of that inside just to make it look like I’m fine. Typical of any guy though, right? I just need a filter.

Edit: I still need to change my tumblr icon asap.

I’m emotionally unstable. This is probably the worst time this could happen. But of course, that’s just me being selfish as usual. Late.

My smile during my first year of high school was so big and bright. My laugh was insane, and was even caused from not-so funny things. Now, my smile is fake. I don’t laugh like how I used to. I became more cynical and negative. I feel like all the negatives catch my attention more than the positives. If you compare pictures of me from this year to my freshman year, my complexion became significantly darker. Depression or maturity? That is the question.

When you start to break down, that’s when you know your standards have been destroyed. Your walls and barriers that protect you from such impacting emotions just crumble, allowing other terrible and negative emotions to flow in as well. But after time, those barriers become rebuilt, yet only stronger. However, it’s only just a matter of time until they crumble, again.

I need some good talks and good company right now. I just want a drama free conversation and a stress less vibe. I need some help. That’s what I need. I just need a good time. I need an escape from reality. I feel like all these bottled up emotions are gonna cause me to explode. I feel like I need someone to express all these emotions to.

I just don’t want to talk to you.